Reconciliation - 03.11.2019
from Frank2. Corinthians 5, 18
Good, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation.
A few weeks ago I made a "mistake". I took a little book and started to read. And then God caught me off guard. I didn't suspect anything bad, but with every sentence it burned inside me and I could only read a little. – It was about forgiveness. I have to forgive. And already everything in me fought, because I was almost always right! But argument after argument, God took it out of my hands; – it's not about that, to be right. Forgiveness is always needed. HE reminded me of so many small and big things, where I grumbled and insisted on my rights. I resented God's ways with me. I resented my own weaknesses. I growled at everyone, which kind of annoyed me. Yes, I had never seen myself like that! I had noticed a few months ago, that I wasn't really mad at anyone, but I wish you all the best! And now this book, this dissection of my motives and this revealing of my heart. Nonetheless, I had to agree with God: I've been rumbling in my heart for years. Terrible!
How should we carry out the ministry of reconciliation and preach reconciliation with God to others, when we growl ourselves? Are dissatisfied with God, ourselves and the others? Not possible, just empty words.
And that's how I started, to clean up everything, what God reminded me of. The children. The woman. The siblings. The neighbours. Everyone was there. And then it was my turn, where I judged myself, though God acquitted me. How can I be so happy? It's not possible, I am caught in my silent grudges and burden the children, the family, the siblings and everyone else with my negative thinking.
It's very effective, others, that kind of annoy us, to forgive, that they are like that, as they are. Your manner annoys us. And forgiveness is the only way, to live with it.
Forgiveness is not a feeling or a thought. Forgiveness is a decision, a matter of will. Stick to the decision, thoughts come after love and feelings, how the wagons drive behind the locomotive.
Thank you jesus, with you it is possible to forgive. It's very hard for me, but i want it that way: I forgive everyone, who hurt me, allen, who wronged me and everyone, that annoy me. Thank you, that you have forgiven me. You have forgiven me every debt, large and small. I am free!! Thank you for reconciliation with God!! No more judgment!! And I no longer want to judge and condemn and also no longer want to insist on my rights. This is my will. help!!